So much has been dissolving for me over the last couple of years. And just when I feel like I’ve released it all… I’m shown another area where I’m being cosmically nudged to shake it up, and let some old templates, narratives and dynamics die.
As one of my colleagues said to me recently after I commented on the continued dissolution that is my life, “Isn’t it funny that we think there is an end to dissolution?” haha, we are nature my friends, and the cycle of death - integration - rebirth - is the name of the game. I’m slowly coming to terms with this as a constant in my reality ;] You??
But for real, is it just me, or is the whole slate being wiped clean?
*a universal pause*
Where this is really kicking up for me is that whole “Work-Life” balance convo. Damn. I feel like in the last couple of years I’ve been on a see-saw getting whiplashed between being burnt the eff out OR being lit up.
I’m looking for the middle way.
And… that middle way, is a NEW way. An embodied way. A way that is deeply attuned to my energetic blueprint, sacred rhythm and system.
It’s time to throw out the cookie cutters and get wild my friends.
Unhooking from urgency culture has been necessary for my mental, physical and emotional wellbeing. And while it’s felt necessary and like a mandatory directive from my soul, it’s been complex, layered and challenging.
Let’s be honest, it’s complex and challenging because it’s where I (and likely many of us) source our safety and security. Aka. Food. Money. Livelihood. Freedom to choose.
And… there is a different way. Or at least, I’m devoted to feeling into that way. As I live into this question, here are some of the narratives I’ve been bumping up against:
What will happen if I go against the cultural messaging around what it looks like to work?
Will I be loved & valued if I’m not being productive?
Who am I if I’m not working in the way I have been?
Will I lose my business if I’m not available?
What will happen if I don’t keep up with the algorithm?
Will I disappear if I slow down?
Will I be able to survive?
Will I still attract aligned souls to join me in my work?
What will happen if I honor my body over exponential growth?
Will I be judged if I create space and honor my energy?
Is it even possible to be anchored & abundant?
Ultimately, the question I’m holding is, “Can I thrive working in the WAY my system, energetic blueprint and body desire to be of service?”
I believe this middle way is what opens the doorway to living in deep alignment with our purpose for being here. What I’ve noticed time and time again on this human journey is that the more I slow down, the easier and faster it all comes.
Hello energetics… I see you.
So for the rest of this year (and hopefully my life), I’m opting for resonance, honesty and integrity with what feels good to my being, body and soul. I hope that by continuing to live into these questions that we can - individually & collectively - shift the pace and conversation we’re having around what work / business / life gets to look like, and feel like.
Psst. There is more here… for you, if you’re ready to get curious.
And let’s face it, you and I both know that when we don’t trust the process of maturation - death, integration & rebirth - we suffer. To let the old ways of being, thinking, moving, relating, and working die & dissolve into compost — so that it may nourish a foundation that is rooted in deeper clarity and inner-coherency is the whole point. *I’m saying this to also remind myself*
What are you composting? Letting go of? Awakening to?
xx, Kylie
So happy to see you on Substack! Feeling all of this deeply as well. Hope to reconnect in the flesh sometime soon. ♥️
It's not just you Kylie.
I'm journeying through this same questioning right now and was nourished/buffered by your email. I especially appreciate the questions you pose, some I too am asking and some are new to me.
I'll be sharing this my sister who I know is also facing this challenge.
I'm watching so much anger and fear show up as I try to walk in the "middle way".
Thanks for sharing in community, feels so good to know there are others out there fumbling along.